Honestly, this is mostly just me whining about shit. Lol
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Even now as I write this down, all pretentions disappear. Now our impulses will bite at the ankles of our fear. So swallow the knife, carve the way for your pride. Now our hands are tied, the problems lie within, so we pray for night, to start over again.
Swallow the Knife - Story of the Year
Awesome song. I love Story of the Year. Seattle is so pretty ^_^
Sooo I have a few things to talk about, I didn't think I did which is why I hadn't written but I thought of them. :)
My birthday turned out pretty dang awesome. I had an interview that morning (I didn't get the job but that's cool), then Becky took me to the zoo! I love the zoo, it was a LOT of fun. Becky's the best :-D. Then I came home and mommy made me tacos and we had cake and ice cream. I thought I'd be a total mess after then, but I actually feel pretty dang good. My back is killing me but other than that, no complaints :)
So Steve (the new therapist) and I went over my "diagnosis" because HE hadn't officially made one for me. He first said he didn't think I'm a borderline, but pulled out the DSM-IV book thingy with diagnosis' in them and we went over it. He asked what I knew/had been told about it, and I told him, no one that'd ever given me that diagnosis had gone over it with me, everything I got, I got from online. So we went over it, and although I do meet at least 5 of the 9 criteria, he told me I'm the mildest borderline he'd ever met. He said usually, they frustrate from the very beginning and they're uncooperative..but I'm not. He told me he hasn't been frustrated with me at all, and I'm incredibly cooperative. And my ability to stay calm in public, is unheard of for a borderline generally speaking. so yay me! So.. his words were "IF you are a borderline, you're a very mild case." yay me! lol... He also said that I may have been worse in the past (which I was), but that I'd done a pretty good job of working through and recognizing things I was doing that were bad, and controlling it. sooo in other words, I'm not as crazy as anyone thought! HAH! So that was good news ;).
On another note, I'm moving to Washington. How, you ask? I'm incredibly poor, you say? I'm going to win the lottery. I can feel it in my BONES. Yes, I'm aware the odds of that are seriously against me, but I can feel it. I'm going to win. And it's going to be epic. :D yay me again!
On a slightly more negative note, my back is killing me. lol. I don't know what I did. I was showing mom something on her computer, and I turned my head to look at her, and WAM! It felt like someone had literally stabbed me in the back. It hurts to move, breath, anything. So Brandi went to the doctor. He said I just pulled a muscle, and gave me an anti inflammatory, and a muscle relaxer, and it was helping yesterday but I think I just felt so out of it I didn't care that it hurt. Not the case today. Today it hurts pretty bad again. That or my tolerance level is going, and I'm tired of being in pain. Which ever the case, it can stop at any time now because Brandi doesn't like it. lol.
I've been in a pretty good mood lately though. Nothing is really bringing me down. I got a little pissy a few nights ago because of my back, and darkness, and spiders but it's all good. I say pissy, I started bawling like a freakin baby lol. So stupid. But I was tired, and I wanted to go to sleep and there were spiders in the way, and no lights, and I'd forgotten my spider stick. Was pretty awful.
Ewww I saw a SNAKE the other day. I went to church on Sunday, and after I took a diet pepsi to my mom out at Thousand Trails, and when I was leaving there was this long slithery snake on the road, slithering FAST away... it was creepy. I hate snakes.
I can't wait to be back in Seattle. I'm SO excited. It's gonna be epic and awesome, and everything good. yaaaay!
And I can't say what, but congrats to a friend on happy news! I'm sooooo happy for you! yay!
Here are a few pics from the zoo, I haven't gotten to editing all of them yet, but here are a few!
Brandi
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