So I haven't written in forever.. I just haven't had anything to say. I still really don't. Dustin is home I got to see him once and I'm sure it'll be a really long time before I see him again, if I ever see him again. We got in a fight not too long ago and he kept me blocked for like two weeks... we're friends again now but.. yeah I'm trying not to talk to him too much.. Don't wanna annoy him.
As for that boy I like.. that hasn't changed. The liking him. If anything I like him more. He's a good friend but God I wish he wanted more... but he straight told me he doesn't see us going anywhere so I guess I should probably give up on that front. His words and actions don't really meet up though so I'm just left confused. I've decided to just go with it. Maybe he'll realize soon that he's essentially dating me anyway and he should just get over it and give in. haha. but anyway..
It's really cold. I'm so glad Christmas and stuff is over but it wasn't as bad as I always think it's going to be. It never is.. wasn't all that great either, but wasn't bad. The point is, I made it through it.. that's all that really matters, right? Lol
I got to see my Heather! Yaaay! She moved back, and I got to see her. All is right with the world. Lol.
So yeah I don't really know what else to say? Living in town and not with my parents is still good. I've had some bad days but that's to be expected due to the fact that sometimes I'm just.. insane. Lol. But really I think I even mostly have a handle on that. There are days I wish I just didn't feel anything at all because feeling things hurts a lot for no good reason.. but there aren't as many of them anymore. And most of the days I have like that are boy related. I need to not be so needy. I just need people to be talking to me and yeah. Although I've kind of found a way around that too.. distraction. I bought a ps2. =D It brings me hours of entertainment and enjoyment... except when I can't beat things and then I get mad but yeah.. I need to get Kingdom Hearts still. I fucking love that game and I need it more than air. The boy loaned me Katamari, it's pretty fun.. and I like Spyro a lot. I'm playing the Enter The Dragonfly one. Tis fun but i'm currently stuck. And that irritates me. I tell you what I really need to do.. get more sleep. I had a lot of time off for Christmas and New Year and I got out of my sleeping patterns lol. I need to go to bed earlier but I can't seem to make myself cuz I'm always doing stuff at bed time haha. Or talking to people. And lets face it, I'd much rather talk to people than sleep.
So the next semi major hurtle to get through after Christmas? Valentine's Day. That's pretty much guaranteed to throw me off considerable. What a stupid holiday. It'd be great if I wasn't all alone and crap, and seriously? I will be. It's okay though. And then my birthday in March. *sighs* why oh why do these days plague me so? Lol. It's alright though. I'll be okay I think.
And I don't have anything else to say. So I'm gonna go. lol TTFN! lol
Brandi
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