Savage Garden - Truly, Madly, Deeply
So, where to start. Lol. I'll start with the bad first because there isn't so much but it is just.. horrifying.
For one, I'm sick. Pretty sure it's bronchitis. Could be pneumonia.. I've never had pneumonia, and this doesn't really feel the same as bronchitis. My lungs feel like they're full of cement, and I'm just.. fucking exhausted and my back feels like someone been beating on me with a crowbar. Also, I noticed this afternoon that my toenails and fingernails are.. grayish. Lol I asked mom about it she goes "you aren't getting enough air, that's why you're so tired too." Sadly though, that is NOT the worst news.
Do you recall, about this time last year.. I mentioned having surgery? Yeah... well here's a little refresher. I'd gotten like a.. abscess in my underarm. It got to about the size of a baseball and I couldn't put my arm down. I had a fever, couldn't stay awake, hurt to move... Finally mom MADE me go to the ER despite my protesting, where they informed me that I'd almost waited too long. It was too close to my heart to have waited so long, I was going septic (which for those of you who don't know, that means that infection was getting into my blood stream and I was essentially poisoning myself to death.). They cut it open, which fucking HURT... filled me full of antibiotics and packed it full of gauze. Told me to come back next day. Infection wasn't improved, and my fever was worse, so they pulled out the gauze, drained it some more, and shot me full of more antibiotics.. a really painful one.. in the ass... and it fucking reeked. lol and I finally started getting better. Well, I just realized? I'm getting another one. I nearly had a panic attack when I noticed it. So, I cut it open myself, got as much out as I could, and then doused it with alcohol. This should be fun.
Buuuut on to more positive things. So I did something, A little manipulative. And kind of crazy. Lol I didn't think it'd work.. but it did much to my gleeful surprise! lol. I offered Jason a "trial relationship" From May 2, to June 2. If on June 2 he decides being with me is awful or he's bored or whatever, he can break up with me and I'll drop it altogether. If he decides to stay with me, same offer applies, if at any time he wants to break up, he can, and I'll let it go. Who the hell thought he'd actually agree to that?!?! but he did. =D He's probably gonna dump my ass on June 2nd... lol but at least I have the month. And maybe.. hopefully.. he won't. He's muh boyfriend =D hehehehehehehe.
So this weekend, he took me to see Iron Man 3, and we ate at Fudruckers. It was a lot of fun. Hit up Hastings and Hobby Lobby too. He didn't like Iron Man because "the villian was just as bad as bane in the new Batman, and it didn't follow the comic... my fanboy is curled up crying right now." Lol.. He's so cute when movies stress him out. And he spent the night again, which is always guaranteed to make me very happy. He's awesome to sleep with. He did hog the covers this time, but it's okay because I have a spare I usually cuddle with lol, so I just pulled it over me when I got cold and snuggled closer to him.. he's like a furnace. lol. But oh man it's... perfection. He holds me so tight. Just wish he'd kiss me more. And he doesn't like hand holding.. which makes me a little sad, but I can live without the hand holding. The sex is fucking amazing. Lol.
All in all, I'm in a much better mood than I have any right to be considering I'm sick and have another one of those things. Maybe it won't get bad this time though. I'll just watch it really carefully and what-not. Or maybe I got it because I'm sick. Who knows. I've also been on my period for 7 fucking days to add insult to injury. But no cramps luckily, so it's more annoying than anything. See? In a much better mood than I have any right to be. But I am exhausted. I've been awake for like two hours and I feel like I'm gonna pass out. So I think it's time for bed here pretty quick. Hope y'all are doing good too. :)
Brandi
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